Well, it's Valentine's Day. Sort of. It's after midnight, so it's technically the 15th, but it's still Valentine's Day to me. Not that it really matters, considering I don't have a significant other with whom to share the evening. ANYWAY. This is not really what I'm going to talk about tonight.
In all honesty, I'm not really sure what I'm going to talk about...
A year ago today, I accepted a Facebook friend request from someone who would change my life. In the words of a favorite musical of mine, who can say if I've been changed for the better, but because I knew you, I have been changed for good.
A lot can happen in a year.
A year.
Geez. It's hard to believe that my life has been totally flipped around in the short span of a year.
A year ago today, I had no idea what would become of the boy who sent me a friend request. I had no idea that he would become my best friend; that I would fall in love with him; that I would painfully wait for him; that he would fulfill every cliche I longed for; that he would become my everything... that he would break my heart; that it would take months to get over him...and I truthfully still wouldn't be over him; that our Facebook friendship would last a total of five months; that a year later, we wouldn't even be talking...
A lot can happen in a year.
It still blows my mind that a year ago, I just barely considered him a friend. A year ago today, I gave him my phone number. Not intentionally. Actually, I was trying to give it to another boy, whom I was crazy about at the time, but things get misunderstood. And now, I contemplate deleting his number all the time. Because then I wouldn't be tempted to text him....when for a year, that's all I've wanted. A year ago today, I sent him the first text message....and eleven months later, he sent the last.
I'm not really sure why I share all of this. I guess I'm just reflecting.
So much can happen in a year; you have no idea. But I am proud that I can say I am not the girl I was a year ago. A year of love, and life, and heartache, and DRAMA has made me so much wiser. I have learned more about myself in the past year than I have in my entire life. And not all of that is due to this boy who a year ago sent me a friend request, but a lot of it is.
While I hate the heartache, I don't regret the occurrences of the past year. At times, I had wished that none of it had happened, but now I'm glad that it has. It was painful, but it changed me.
So, if you've been following my blog (which I doubt any of you have), I say thank you.
Thank you for being with me for a year. I started this blog on the first day of March last year, and here I am, almost a year later, in my twelfth month of blogging, and I think we can all agree: I've come a long way.
I'm going to try and stay off of the topic of this boy from now on. As mentioned in my last post, we've decided to not be friends, and we haven't had contact in over a month now, so it only makes sense that as I attempt to rid him from my life and mind, I rid him from my blog as well.
I appreciate that he was my muse for a year, but it's time for a new one.
Here's to a year ago today.
And to a year from today, as well.
I look forward to looking back, a year from now, and being able to say, "Wow; so much has happened. Thank goodness I'm not nearly the girl I was a year ago today."
